It's been awhile

Sorry, I know its been awhile since I post anything. I am currently 10 weeks and 4 days pregnant! Things look good as far as I can tell. I have a doctors appointment on Thursday afternoon. I am trying to be relaxed about the appointment but truth is I'm really SCARED. I guess its because the last 11 week appointment I went to pregnant, I found out about the miscarriage. It was sooo disappointing and sooo unexpected. I had no signs of miscarriage at all. SOOO even though I feel fine and I have NO sign of miscarriage this time I still have anxiety about going to this appointment.. I know I need to trust and I want to TRUST.  Its just really hard to do after a loss. I promise to update the blog on Thursday after my appointment. I am hoping to hear the heartbeat :)