Worth it ???

So, as most of you know I suffered a miscarriage last September. We have wanted to try again ever since. I went to my D/C follow up in October and my doctor told me we needed to wait to try again until January. I was a little disappointed in the waiting because, I wanted nothing more than just to be pregnant again. Knowing that its not easy for us to get pregnant, I realized that waiting until January to go back on treatments equaled A LONG PROCESS. My personal goal is to be pregnant by April, which is when if not for the miscarriage I would be having a baby. I do however understand that April is MY plan and that MY plan and God's Plan sometimes have different timing. My doctor wanted to take a more aggressive approach this time instead of playing around with low doses and multiple cycles of sickness. He believes that this bolder approach will result in pregnancy within the first few cycles. His belief behind this approach is that I already had 2 successful full term pregnancies. He knows clomid can/will work for me, but because of the miscarriage he wants to up the clomid dose to 100mg for Cycle days 3-9. He is also asking me to wear a patch of low dose estrogen on cycle days 11-13 and then follow up the patch with a HCG injection on Cycle day 16. He will see me back on cycle day 21 for blood work. Then the beautiful 2 week wait to see if pregnancy was achieved.

So what does all of this mean??? Well I am currently on cycle day 5 which means completion of this cycle will be toward the end of February. So until then I keep counting cycle days, taking meds, injections and patches, and say A LOT of prayers that this will be our month.

What happens if it fails? Well, my only answer I can come up with is GOD is in Control. I believe He is more than enough for me. I am thankful for the four beautiful children that HE already gave me and I will keep TRUSTING his plan for my life.

For the record...many people have ask WHY would I want more children and cant I just be happy with what I have? My answer... I believe God called me to be a stay at home, homeschooling mom. I also believe that Children are a blessing from the Lord. I am thankful for a husband who works very hard everyday to keep me at home with our children. I LOVE being a mom more than anything. I want to have as many children as God will allow me resources to have. YES treatments are rough, but to ME it is worth it!