Worth it ???

So, as most of you know I suffered a miscarriage last September. We have wanted to try again ever since. I went to my D/C follow up in October and my doctor told me we needed to wait to try again until January. I was a little disappointed in the waiting because, I wanted nothing more than just to be pregnant again. Knowing that its not easy for us to get pregnant, I realized that waiting until January to go back on treatments equaled A LONG PROCESS. My personal goal is to be pregnant by April, which is when if not for the miscarriage I would be having a baby. I do however understand that April is MY plan and that MY plan and God's Plan sometimes have different timing. My doctor wanted to take a more aggressive approach this time instead of playing around with low doses and multiple cycles of sickness. He believes that this bolder approach will result in pregnancy within the first few cycles. His belief behind this approach is that I already had 2 successful full term pregnancies. He knows clomid can/will work for me, but because of the miscarriage he wants to up the clomid dose to 100mg for Cycle days 3-9. He is also asking me to wear a patch of low dose estrogen on cycle days 11-13 and then follow up the patch with a HCG injection on Cycle day 16. He will see me back on cycle day 21 for blood work. Then the beautiful 2 week wait to see if pregnancy was achieved.

So what does all of this mean??? Well I am currently on cycle day 5 which means completion of this cycle will be toward the end of February. So until then I keep counting cycle days, taking meds, injections and patches, and say A LOT of prayers that this will be our month.

What happens if it fails? Well, my only answer I can come up with is GOD is in Control. I believe He is more than enough for me. I am thankful for the four beautiful children that HE already gave me and I will keep TRUSTING his plan for my life.

For the record...many people have ask WHY would I want more children and cant I just be happy with what I have? My answer... I believe God called me to be a stay at home, homeschooling mom. I also believe that Children are a blessing from the Lord. I am thankful for a husband who works very hard everyday to keep me at home with our children. I LOVE being a mom more than anything. I want to have as many children as God will allow me resources to have. YES treatments are rough, but to ME it is worth it!

Chelsea's Surgery is OVER!!!

Things went according to plan!!! Chelsea is still in some pain and she has some swelling but all in all we are praising God tonight for taking great care of her today. Thank you to everyone who prayed for us, please continue to do so as she begins her recovery.

Chelsea's surgery in the morning

Our sixteen year old daughter is scheduled to have surgery tomorrow morning to fix a jaw alignment problem. We need to have her at the hospital at 5:00am. Surgery is at 7:00am. She should be able to come home in the afternoon/evening if all goes as planned. Please pray for things to go smoothly tomorrow. Thank you.

Caleb's Turtle

Just captured this sweet picture of Caleb on his turtle yesterday. Grammy got him the turtle for his birthday back in September, but he couldn't get himself on it. Yesterday he finally figured it out! His feet still don't touch the ground :)

Snow Day!

Yes...I said snow!!! It does snow in Texas just not for long! That's OK with me because, I grew up in North Carolina (close to the mountains) where it snows 4 or 5 big snows per year. I can say I have had all of the snow that I need for this year! One snow a year is good with me. I love it while the snow is falling and I enjoy watching my kids play in it but I don't like how the yard turns from a beautiful blanket of white to an ugly brown mud puddle. I did however get some cute pictures of the kids playing yesterday before the ugly mud puddles surfaced!

                                                    

                                                               

                                              
                                                                           

                                                          

                                                           

                                                     

                                     Caleb's little face was so red...He didn't want to go inside!


It was fun! Maybe one more snow day wouldn't be SO bad after all :)

Top 10 Family Happenings of 2010

Ok so I know its a little late, I should have wrote this post on New Years Eve. Sorry. I am new to blogging and I enjoy it, its just sometimes hard to find the time for it. (Goal for 2011 BLOG MORE!)


1.We started out the year with worry...Scott, the financial backer of our family lost his job to a layoff in February.
but God said...

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34 

2. In March we started attending a new church, Heartland Church in Carrollton, Texas. It was a breath of fresh air. Where we came from a chuch that was small in size and our children were struggling to make friends. They really needed the fellowship of a larger church family. So we we moved on from the little church and it proved to be a wise decision for the entire family. We waited patiently and listened for God to tell us Heartland should be our Church home. We attended from March until October and after much prayer we officially joined their congregation.

In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps. Proverbs 16:9

3. In April, Colton turned 4 and after eight weeks of unemployment and a stressful job search...National Indoor Storage called Scott and offered him his job back!

 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Jeremiah 29:11

4.In May, I decided since our financial future looked promising and God had met all of our needs, I would take Caleb on his first Airplane trip to North Carolina to visit family!

And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19

5. In June we began the process of trying to have another baby!

Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD, The fruit of the womb is a reward.
Psalm 127:3

6. In July after only ONE cycle of fertility treatments we find out were PREGNANT!

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. Psalm 139:13

7. In August we CELEBRATED! Christa turned 10 and Chelsea sweet 16 then we celebrated some more  with Caleb turning a year old September 3rd!!! We also celebrated Caleb's baby dedication with our new Church Family!

And the child grew and became strong in spirit. Luke 1:80

8. September 23rd at 12 weeks pregnancy we found out the baby that I was carrying had no heartbeat. Much to our disappointment only 4 days later, I was scheduled for a DNC. Asking “What now, Lord?” instead of “Why, Lord?” is a hard lesson to learn. It's hard to ask the right question when you’re feeling disappointed. It's hard to ask when your heart is breaking. It's hard to ask “What now?” when your dreams have been shattered. But your life will begin to change when you start asking God, "What would you have me do now, Lord?

"God blesses you who weep now, for the time will come when you will laugh with joy." Luke 6:21

9. October came and went by fast. Halloween was here and gone before I knew it. Colton was Spiderman, Christa was Mother Nature, Chelsea was a Vampire and Caleb well he was a tiger although I really wanted him to wear the bear suit. Halloween was quickly followed by Thanksgiving my favorite time of year! We had so much to be thankful for. God had shown his mercy on us so many times through out this year. We celebrated with family. Aunt Amanda came over and watched the Macy's Day Parade with the kids while I cooked our Turkey dinner! Thanksgiving turned into black Friday quickly as Toys R Us opened at 10pm this year on Thanksgiving night. Yes. I was there, in line, and freezing.

" And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him."  Colossians 3:17

10. December. What can I say other than we were tired. The kids participated in the Heartland Church Christmas performance.The girls and I also had the opportunity to do some volunteer work just before the Holidays. We needed the break of the Holidays more this year than any other year I think. Our Christmas was beautiful. We stayed at home in Texas and had a plentiful yet relaxing Christmas! Who would have thought back in February that we would be able to even buy gifts for our own kids this year. Yet God allowed us to bless not one but TWO angels on 2 different angel trees this year! God is good and he is Faithful. He proves himself each and every day in our lives and for that I am THANKFUL!
So Long 2010. We are pleased to welcome 2011. God has big plans for our family this year and we are excited to see them fulfilled!

Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

Psalm 117

 ¹ Praise the LORD, all you nations;
   extol him, all you peoples.
² For great is his love toward us,
   and the faithfulness of the LORD endures forever.    Praise the LORD!


Happy New Year!