Desires of your Heart

So...to give an update on where we are with this fertility cycle, we are 5 or 6 days post ovulation. Im sure that doesn't mean much to most, but to me its the offical count down to knowing if we are expecting. When will we know if we are expecting??? The answer...maybe next Thursday! I have much hope that this could be our month but I also dread taking a pregnancy test as well because I hate to be disapointed if its negative. I know when the time is right we will be pregnant again. How can I know this for sure you ask??? Its a promise of God. Psalm 37:4

Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.

I know this verse is true because, I have four beautiful kids all of which were the desires of my heart.
That is proof enough for me.

Its Valentines Day!

Happy Valentines Day to all of my friends and family! This year Scott gave me some beautiful pink tulips! He also made us dinner reservations for last Saturday night. I got him a card and some chocolate covered strawberry's. We got the kids each a stuffed animal and candy. Caleb a bumble bee. Christa and Chelsea got dogs and Colton got a frog. Green is Colton's FAVORITE color. Happy Valentines Day everyone!

Super Bowl Sunday!

Today our City is privileged to welcome the Super Bowl to town!!! We will not be going out for any festivities but rather stay home and have a party at our house! Needless to say with the Super Bowl in town there is a lot of traffic and the restaurants are PACKED...I heard 3 hour wait times at some of the downtown locations. I guess that is unless you are a celebrity then you can get through the back door. There are plenty of celebrities to go around this weekend, as I watched the news last night they were reporting live from a local night club and they had the RED CARPET rolled out waiting on Jamie Fox, and Adam Sandler. There are so many parties going on its unbelievable, but as for us we will party here with family and friends! I will try to post pics later tonight. Who am I pulling for you ask??? The Steeler's...why I have no idea. I guess I have to pull for somebody and since the Cowboys are not in it... then Steeler's it is!!!!
 
                                     
          Love this tablecloth with the Dallas skyline and stadium!

                                          Caleb eating his veges!

                                         All four of my kiddos!

                                               Aunt Amanda

                                                     My hubby

                                                             

                                    Grammy and Caleb!

The Super Bowl game was ok but the party at my house with family was SUPER!

A Texas ICE DAY!

Today the Dallas streets are filled with ICE. No Snow but ICE. The roads are not good. So what does this mean for me??? A beautiful, much needed day of rest complete with having my husband home to help! Its very rare that my husband's workplace is closed. Having Scott home today was a blessing! So the city is pretty much shut down and we are all at home cozy and warm enjoying our extra family time!
                                                 
                                          OUTSIDE!

                                          INSIDE!!!

 Ice day Outside + Kids Inside = lots of joyful noise!

Worth it ???

So, as most of you know I suffered a miscarriage last September. We have wanted to try again ever since. I went to my D/C follow up in October and my doctor told me we needed to wait to try again until January. I was a little disappointed in the waiting because, I wanted nothing more than just to be pregnant again. Knowing that its not easy for us to get pregnant, I realized that waiting until January to go back on treatments equaled A LONG PROCESS. My personal goal is to be pregnant by April, which is when if not for the miscarriage I would be having a baby. I do however understand that April is MY plan and that MY plan and God's Plan sometimes have different timing. My doctor wanted to take a more aggressive approach this time instead of playing around with low doses and multiple cycles of sickness. He believes that this bolder approach will result in pregnancy within the first few cycles. His belief behind this approach is that I already had 2 successful full term pregnancies. He knows clomid can/will work for me, but because of the miscarriage he wants to up the clomid dose to 100mg for Cycle days 3-9. He is also asking me to wear a patch of low dose estrogen on cycle days 11-13 and then follow up the patch with a HCG injection on Cycle day 16. He will see me back on cycle day 21 for blood work. Then the beautiful 2 week wait to see if pregnancy was achieved.

So what does all of this mean??? Well I am currently on cycle day 5 which means completion of this cycle will be toward the end of February. So until then I keep counting cycle days, taking meds, injections and patches, and say A LOT of prayers that this will be our month.

What happens if it fails? Well, my only answer I can come up with is GOD is in Control. I believe He is more than enough for me. I am thankful for the four beautiful children that HE already gave me and I will keep TRUSTING his plan for my life.

For the record...many people have ask WHY would I want more children and cant I just be happy with what I have? My answer... I believe God called me to be a stay at home, homeschooling mom. I also believe that Children are a blessing from the Lord. I am thankful for a husband who works very hard everyday to keep me at home with our children. I LOVE being a mom more than anything. I want to have as many children as God will allow me resources to have. YES treatments are rough, but to ME it is worth it!

Chelsea's Surgery is OVER!!!

Things went according to plan!!! Chelsea is still in some pain and she has some swelling but all in all we are praising God tonight for taking great care of her today. Thank you to everyone who prayed for us, please continue to do so as she begins her recovery.

Chelsea's surgery in the morning

Our sixteen year old daughter is scheduled to have surgery tomorrow morning to fix a jaw alignment problem. We need to have her at the hospital at 5:00am. Surgery is at 7:00am. She should be able to come home in the afternoon/evening if all goes as planned. Please pray for things to go smoothly tomorrow. Thank you.